It’s been a tough week for my body. It’s been abused, poisoned and wrecked.
It’s been a tough week for my mind and emotions. They’ve been mangled, tested to the extreme and been found wanting.
What happened
At the start of the week I ate a large, gooey piece of cake. A friend was celebrating and I felt unable to refuse. It’s some time since I last felt unable to turn down something I don’t eat. I’m usually fastidious about sticking to the diet.
A while back I was inspired by an article on PaNu. I recommend you read it if you are someone who eats an “unconventional” diet. The summary is that if you truly believe that some foods are bad for you then don’t feel obliged to eat them when offered or make up an excuse like gluten intolerance. Instead turn them down and be truthful with your reasons.
You may find you persuade someone else to your point of view along the way.
What is wrong with cake?
Those who are regular readers of my blog will know that I am strongly against wheat, refined sugar and some other high carb foods for three main reasons.
- I subscribe to the Paleolithic Diet principle that our bodies are, as a general rule, not evolved to process complex agricultural foods and eliminate or weaken the anti-nutrients in them.
- I believe that wheat and similar foods aggravate the gut lining, impacting on my immune system and my ability to recover from my workouts.
- After adapting to obtain energy from fat sources, several consecutive meals with high carb foods can move me back to sourcing energy from carbs. For multi-day wilderness trips it’s convenient to burn my own body fat for several hours of emergency energy and beneficial to carry light-weight calorie-dense foods (eg. nuts and dark chocolate) that give me longer-term energy benefits.
Why eating “just one slice” becomes a problem
Last week I read an article about wheat withdrawal. Dr. Davis has noticed that people who consume a lot of wheat may struggle to stop. Like smokers they can try to stop, but often suffer from severe withdrawal symptoms which break their resolve. Added to this, many people have noted the particularly addictive combination of sugar and fat.
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Paleo cake - not so addictive
Having consumed my slice of cake I was overcome by a desperate hunger minutes later, a desire to eat more cake. I consoled myself that this was the expected insulin spike and that the shaking and hunger would pass with my next sensible meal.
But it continued. Suddenly I was craving more of the same.
Someone at work brought in cake for their birthday the next day. I haven’t helped myself to birthday cakes for over a year and I’ve never even felt the urge to eat them, but suddenly I couldn’t resist. I could imagine the satisfaction I would get from the cake, the sensation of the sweetness on my tongue.
Eventually I couldn’t stand it any more. I had one piece. Then a second. Then a third. Each time I found it did nothing for me and told myself it would be the last. But my mind was convinced that the next piece would taste delicious…
Emotional eating
I was out-of-control in a downward spiral. I knew I wouldn’t like the taste but there was a short circuit stopping my mind from participating in rational debate, instead convincing me that cakes would make me feel better. After a few days of this I felt ashamed of my behaviour. I didn’t dare tell Chris what was happening.
That’s when I finally caught myself. Going to the toilets to change on my way out of the office I grabbed a cake. I was sat in a toilet cubicle eating the cake where nobody could see me when it hit me. These were symptoms of emotional eating when someone feels bad and eats to feel better.
That’s Fit have compiled a few people’s tweats on how they stop themselves from emotional eating, but do these techniques really work?
Emotions or addiction?
Emotional eating is often blamed for over-eating and obesity but after my experiences I think it is much simpler. I have always considered myself to have strong willpower and there were no emotional issues to blame last week, yet someone watching me would have called it emotional eating.
When you have frightening cravings for the addictive wheat, sugars and fats, you eat to satisfy the cravings. If you don’t satisfy the cravings you feel depressed, there’s no good feeling from denying yourself, so if you don’t eat you put your emotions out of balance. If you are stressed or emotionally drained it’ll be even harder to resist the cravings.
Walk into any restaurant or motorway service station – it is almost impossible not to be forced into eating highly addictive combinations. Wait at the checkout in the supermarket and you have to look at foodstuffs that, once you’ve tasted them, make you want more.
Can we blame people for being obese when they are faced with their addictions at every turn? If we want to help we need to not only re-educate them about different foods but also help them to avoid seeing the foods they are addicted to.
Resolving the addiction
Personally, my first step was to acknowledge that I was starting to become addicted. The second step was to remove myself from the problem foods – easy enough to do over a weekend since we don’t have any “bad” foods in our house and Chris did the shopping for me.
A weekend of not seeing or eating anything that might set me off was enough to put me back in control. As I said, my willpower is pretty strong.
Will my body recover? Probably. Will I do it again? I’d like to think not, but with an enemy as wily as this, who can ever tell?